Happiness by Faria

Happiness

by Faria

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Please do not look for happiness underneath the layers I wear, Underneath the skin I was born into, Or underneath my Thick Curly hair. Not because I will not strive to make you happy, but because I cannot fathom what you will do when I am not there.

I want you to be happy first…without me, then, when I am by your side. I want you to be able to see the light in day, not through my eyes…but through your own, because you have the ability to… but you rely on me, before you rely on you.

I want to know, that when I have to go… you will not hide away, that you will not allow your beautiful soul to decay, Due to the lack of motivation, and the lack of reason, because life makes no sense when you have nothing to believe in…. I understand your pain. I feel it too. But the truth is, soon I will have to leave and I will no longer physically be with you.

I will not be there when you come home after a long cruel day, I will not be there when you just want to wrap yourself around me, because the warmth of my hugs and the tenderness of my kisses, remind you that no matter how tough it is out there, you can still find peace…within my presence.

But I will be there mentally, I will be there on the other end of the phone, I will be there behind a screen, Staring straight at you, Promising I will try my best, to once again be with you.

But you need to promise me this…That I will not be your only source of happiness. As uplifting and flattering as that is, I cannot bare the thought of it. I want you to be happy first, without me, then happy with me. I want you to see the light of day past me, and not through me.

By Faria, 29th November 2015

2 thoughts on “Happiness by Faria”

This is perhaps the saddest but most beautiful thing that touches my soul deeply. I cannot put my finger on exactly the intention behind the piece lays but it makes me think of God and how he would want humanity to live on if he were letting everyone know he was getting ready to die so he could be reborn. And as though he’s letting everyone know he knows what’s happening and is showing himself so humanity can ease his passing into adulthood. He’s not scared and neither should we be because for a short time we will get to see what it like to “live like gods”.

It’s very interesting and soothing to my mind. Thank you for this piece of work. It is simply amazing.

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