I Shall Let Him Adorn Me
I shall let him adorn me…
Let his fingertips paint me, mould me, shape me and create me…Form me into this beautiful depiction stemming from the fragments of his mind.
I shall allow him entry, with no hesitation for I am a wandering entity.
I shall embrace this fact and sprinkle it with confidence to overcome my fears and self-consciousness.
I shall lay still and quiet; yet with eyes open wide…Wide with curious thoughts trembling inside.
He is in front of me, I can feel his bare chest.
For this is the moment I must forget about the rest.
I shall allow myself to react, I shall allow my body to feel.
I shall create from this intimate moment, a memory so surreal.
I want to overcome my fear of never being able to take it back,
The fear of letting go of what I proudly own, and the innocence I soon will lack.
This fear instilled within me from my own concept and beliefs,
Suddenly it’s all over and…I feel nothing but relief.
It was beautiful, it was calm, it was everything he said it would be.
No need for this fear I carried around, I now realise subsequently.
However, in my imagination this tune will reside,
saved for the day this scenario comes to life.
Until then I can only speak with a creative tongue, for the truth is:
I am not ready yet; therefore these notes will be kept unsung.
By Faria, published November 6th 2015